Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Dear buddies,
I'm alright. Sorry to have made u guys worried but dun worry, nothing happened to me. Just being emo. hahaha.. Guess at certain point of time in your life, you'll look back & reflect on the things you've done, the decisions u've made & just simply think of nothing and everything.
Do you guys ever encounter this feeling too??
Met up with LX today & had a good talk. Told her what i was feeling and that it was just a thought, dun really mean to leave the field la. hahaha.. But when i do, i will surely let u guys know. hahahaha..
HAving a mixture of anger, disapointment but mostly fustration that i can't really voice out. Haiz.. Is God really testing us?? Testing our patience?? Though i always say good things are worth the wait, however, the waiting is really hard.
Thank you Lx for your patience and encouragement. Actually I felt really bad.. Sorry to keep you waiting. Hopefully things will turn out well as you've said, God's plan for you. heehee.. Enjoy your blessed life while i Continue with my Sloggy life. *duh! life's not fair. bleh* lolx..
Actually my sloggy life isn't that bad too. hahaha.. I'm lucky in my own way. I'm now under the care of my new colleagues =) Thought can finally slim down (insider news frm Minqi b4 i joined was that they dun eat!!). But who knows.....
They are FEEDING me with lots of Food!! =(
Alicia often buys breakfast for me. Annie will buy snacks for me to eat once in a while when she went out. Desiree tried to feed me with bread. Ivan & Geraldine eats lunch with me & we even went to Marina Square for 2 hours lunch on Sat & went Raffles City foodcourt to eat lunch today. (I know Qi Qi won't believe this. They are EATING!! hahaa..)
They are really nice people but they makes things real awkward between me and the gals. They will buy food for me and not for them, etc.. Haiz.. I felt so bad to be in between all these. Once, a supplier came & gave diaries to us but there was only 1extra left after distributing to the perm staff. They purposely exclaimed loudly that they are giving it to me. I almost "peng" from my chair. Though it's only a diary but the gals must have felt unhappy over it. Told Annie that i dun feel comfortable when they does that, but they feel it's alright. haiz.. Guess the gals must have hated me. =(
happy mel mel @ 11:59 PM
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