Sunday, January 20, 2008
Long time since i last blogged.. Too lazy & tired to blog.. Heehee..
My new job is pretty much the same & the colleagues there treat me pretty well. But i still miss having Minqi & Jade around. Don't have much topics to talk to the 3 gals and now i eat lunch with my Raffles Hotel gang which is Geraldine & Ivan. And Minqi, can u believe it, Ivan is still teasing me abt the Duck rice!! hahaha.. Think he still haven't got over it and i was teasing him, whenever he eats duck rice in the future, he'll remember us. hahahha..
Boss treated us dinner @ Swiss Merchant Court. Think i've been there before with Lx & gang. Chef Louis Tay (the one who was on tv with Sam Leong) is the executive chef there and he chatted & entertained us. He passed us his name card and i told him i've no name card to give him. hahahaa.. But he's still very nice, told me never mind can email him. hahaha.. Quite a nice person as he didn't put on any airs. How nice it would be, if all chefs are like that.....
Ever since i worked there, i began to develop a phobia for chef. My colleagues would tell me scary stories of chefs throwing tempers at them & i've seen for myself how nasty some can be. The word "Chef" now makes me think of nasty, hot-tempered, unreasonble... Oh no... So scary... I never use to think of Chef in this light before. I used to think that if my bf is a chef, how wonderful it'll be. He can cook very nice things for me to eat... But after this job, i'm afraid that my perecption of chefs has changed dramatically.
I'm sure there will be some good tempered ones and hopefully all chefs can be like them, then we won't have so much problems. GUess it's not easy to tame ur temper when u are behind the hot wok everyday.
Was feeling quite upset recently & was thinking abt things like changing job (obviously not possible & obviously not switching to my current job). Was just wondering what it's like being in another field as u know how bad ECH field is.
We put in our heart & soul to our job, we have to do shitty things (as in real shit too), our work is never ending and yet our pay is so miserable, our own friends look down on our job and it makes things worst if we get nasty parents.
I began to question myself is it worth it to be hanging on in this field while obviously no one recognises our efforts and respect our occupation. It's no wonder why ECH teachers get burnt out in this field so fast and how some good teachers have left the field. Haiz.. A real vicious cycle which i feel so helpless towards it.
Looking at my job now, though the pay is also peanuts but i dun have to bring any work back and when i tell people i'm working in a purchasing dept for RH, people go "Ooh and Ahh" over it as they thought hotel line is much better. Almost same pay but diff amt of work and more relaxing. No wonder ECH turnover rate is so high. Haiz...
Just when i'm feeling down, My hong hong msged me to wish me happy new year. Taught him & his bro 3 years ago and i Really miss him and quan quan. Time really flies... He's now in Pri 3 and he was telling me that he's happy in school. He also send me a picture msg of a monkey with a big grin saying "smile ok". His msg really brought a smile to my face and also make me realize one thing. The reason as to why i am still hanging on to this field though it look so bleak ~ the Passion for children
No matter how dejected or lousy i am feeling, a smile or a hug from my children never fails to life my sprits up again. It's this feeling that i'm missing now. Though other field may be more glamourous than ECH but they won't be able to experience this feeling that we as ECH educators will feel.
I miss my little darlings... and i'm so afraid that i'll lose this feeling once i'm in my new position. The simple joy in interacting with them.. Will i?? I look at how my buddies are feeling now, i can't help but wonder. Will i be so caught up with paperworks & admin stuff that i'll miss having fun with the children??
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happy mel mel @ 11:30 PM
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